anyway, i had another add on dream last night. felt like shit when i woke up lah, total mood spoiler, and it didn't help that my sister is renovating her toilet, re-tiling and what not. anyway, back to the dreams, it seems that they're starting to come true, with all the recent happenings and information i've stumbled across, it's been bringing back memories of almost 3 years ago and i can't help but think that it's happening all over again. once was bad enough, what if it happens again? i never thought this would happen, thinking that this would be it, and this happens. urgh.
i guess i really need someone to talk to right now, but yet, i don't feel like talking. so i may once again start appearing offline much more, even though my com is on almost 24/7 and i'm sitting in front of it most of the time, in an attempt to avoid that. but if anyone does feel that they want to talk to me, just click on me, and leave a message, i should be there.
and i think i will burying myself in the books more to avoid reality.
so i guess all i have to blog about that happened recently are the 2 camps i've went to this past week. 1st being the student ambassadors training camp back in RP, haven't seen anyone there in ages, camp was rather fun except for the lack of sleep i had on the 2nd night. hmmm, met all the juniors and afew other alumni, as well as all the newbies, some really interesting people that i would have liked to get to know a little better. only problem is that i don't know when i can get to see them all again. next camp perhaps? oh well, all depends on army.
oh, speaking of army, still have not received my airforce COMPASS test results yet, oh well, as josh said when i was talking to him about it "no news is good news", so fingers crossed, i hope i still can get it as i'd rather go there than NDU.
ok, i'm digressing, so 2nd camp i went to was sec 2 camp, nothing much for me to comment on that camp as all i did was sit and the friggin side doing absolutely nothing, waiting for potential problems with the sound that rarely and almost never happened, and it didn't help that i had to be there anytime someone was using the mics, which basically meant the whole friggin time. let's just say that that made me wish it was already august. anyway, that wasn't the only thing that irked me at camp. sitting there, all i could do was watch the groups and their activities, and basically, i saw quite afew things that irritated me. well, there was only one main redeeming point about camp, but i don't wish to point it out. i'll leave it to your imagination.
arhh. it's 2am and i'm friggin bored. i'm not exactly tired but that's not the main reason i don't want to sleep. stupid dream i had 2 nights ago. i just so hope it doesn't come true cos i always seem to have this sense of de javu in future about some stuff i dream about, although i know it's very possible it could happen, i just don't want it to. guess i should at least be grateful that i didn't dream about it again last night.
ok, i now have nothing else to talk about so i shall go off, watch some tv, and then head to bed soon. i'm dreading it, which is quite bad cos i actually love to sleep. -sigh-